I realize there are things beyond my control. I realize I created every second of my life.
To call me is alright. to write me is better. we're both clearer in our writing.
The "Queen" tribute symphony is playing right now. I saw August Rush tonight. I cried. I let myself cry. I am allways moved by music. It is in my blood and it is stronger than any passion or pull I've ever felt or been moved by.
It is best that I realize I would rather die than never to feel music again.
That if I could not sing, I would play. But if I could not play, and could not sing, I would keep the music in my heart and mind, recovering the sounds in vibrations.
Music is my lover, my friend, my caresses, my salvation, my home, my breath, my God.
Music gives me birth.
I choose music now, over everything else. over everyone else.
one day my music will be conducted, played, recorded, and felt by thousands, and all of those thousands will feel my love, and be moved by this magic force of music.
I was really down. my hearts outlet of love suddenly going away back home. my hands working to untie myself from it all so the tearing separation of all those i love would not hurt so much. but music is the only love never to be untied, never to leave, and all my energy would be used so well to channel it all through music!!
i must love it more than food, than life, than friends, than boyfriends or girlfriends or romances, then parties, than moodiness!
i have conducted the orchestra of my heart for years. and the symphony changes all the time. and the instruments come and go. the soloist is me, playing my concerto, my sonata, even lightly dancing my mintuet, and sometimes I am within the orchestra, and sometimes I am in front, and sometimes I am all alone on an empty stage in a dark and foggy barclub, but I am allways conducting the song, allways resolving my melodies, allways changes the tune... but I am allways there, as my music, with my music...
and its due time i give it my whole heart!
let something grab you with passion, and let you risk all for the part of you that you cannot live without. find what you love and do it.
To call me is alright. to write me is better. we're both clearer in our writing.
The "Queen" tribute symphony is playing right now. I saw August Rush tonight. I cried. I let myself cry. I am allways moved by music. It is in my blood and it is stronger than any passion or pull I've ever felt or been moved by.
It is best that I realize I would rather die than never to feel music again.
That if I could not sing, I would play. But if I could not play, and could not sing, I would keep the music in my heart and mind, recovering the sounds in vibrations.
Music is my lover, my friend, my caresses, my salvation, my home, my breath, my God.
Music gives me birth.
I choose music now, over everything else. over everyone else.
one day my music will be conducted, played, recorded, and felt by thousands, and all of those thousands will feel my love, and be moved by this magic force of music.
I was really down. my hearts outlet of love suddenly going away back home. my hands working to untie myself from it all so the tearing separation of all those i love would not hurt so much. but music is the only love never to be untied, never to leave, and all my energy would be used so well to channel it all through music!!
i must love it more than food, than life, than friends, than boyfriends or girlfriends or romances, then parties, than moodiness!
i have conducted the orchestra of my heart for years. and the symphony changes all the time. and the instruments come and go. the soloist is me, playing my concerto, my sonata, even lightly dancing my mintuet, and sometimes I am within the orchestra, and sometimes I am in front, and sometimes I am all alone on an empty stage in a dark and foggy barclub, but I am allways conducting the song, allways resolving my melodies, allways changes the tune... but I am allways there, as my music, with my music...
and its due time i give it my whole heart!
let something grab you with passion, and let you risk all for the part of you that you cannot live without. find what you love and do it.
