If it Ain't Growing It's Dying

I was sick as well. lost my voice completely.
and i couldn't understand why. but all small and grand miracles come in forms unknown and definitely unexpected. and these sickness's... they teach us, but we must really look for that mystery. and KNOW the universe has reason behind all things.

but sickness doesn't come when you open up.
sickness comes when you close up, block up, when you ignore emotions that arise in situations.
situations trigger these emotions, and people get sick when things like that are repressed... are pushed back inside of us to fester and to bubble until we burst under pressure. imbalances are caused by these sort of things.

and there is a YES YES YES place. but most places aren't just like that. you must already create that for yourself, IN yourself. already be there in your soul.
if you run away from places that say no, SOMETIMES you are just already in a place of no in your soul. you are already in a place that is far from the YES of enlightenment. but places and people cause challenges that are crucial to your survival... to your growth.

because... anything that isn't growing, is dying.
it is important. the YES places help you remember the YES in your heart, in your soul. but that is truly created by you, if you learn to remember on your own what it feels like.
and then... only then... you create your world. you create the entire world of YES.

i do not back away from places that i find a dark energy. if i am there, i am there. if i am required to be there (like school) i don't run from the energy... i remember my own jewel inside. and sometimes, yes... we fall from ourselves. we fall from our own thrones of enlightenment and godliness. but that's why there are places of YES to remind us. but it is the ultimate lesson... to be exactly WHO YOU ARE, WHEREVER YOU ARE. then you are in control of your own life.